Facing Emotions

"We cannot direct the wind but we can adjust the sails."   

Today has been a day where I have been both embracing and overcoming anger. I am adjusting my sails as I am learning that I cannot control the direction that this journey will take me. It's hard not to let frustration, anger over this happening to me and anxiety to "get going" take over. 

After a quick appointment for the gallium injection at St Mary's, I met with the surgeon who will be doing the lymph node biopsy. Once again, what you expect when you go to the appointment turns out very differently from the story you painted in your head for yourself. I have said several times, I have been nothing but grateful and impressed with the efficiency of the specialists in booking appointments for me and communicating results. It has been done in the most caring and expedient of ways. 

I will be having a lymph node biopsy of a node in my right armpit, the whole lymph node will be removed on Tuesday, April 8 during day surgery.  This is the safest procedure with the fewest risks. Removing a lymph node from my neck or collarbone regions carry risks of damaging nerves connected to my spinal cord area. While I am thinking general anesthetic is not a bad way to go for this, it involves a more lengthy recovery and pushed the surgery to next week. Looking for the silver cloud, as I continue to try to do. It allows me three uninterrupted days of work this week and am opportunity to celebrate the life of a loved one.

So the waiting period continues, allowing me to live a semblance of "normal life" as I know it now. Thank you to my oldest friend who came this weekend for a much needed visit and a basket of my favourite things. What a joy to have a friend who knows you so well that she can choose a variety of items that comfort me, inspire me and give me hope. Thank you M#1.

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.

Buddha

Else, Hot, Holding

Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.

Mark Twain

Harm, Acid, Vessel

Anybody can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within everybody's power and is not easy.

Aristotle

Time, Power, Become

Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools.

Albert Einstein

Fools, Dwells, Bosom

In a controversy the instant we feel anger we have already ceased striving for the truth, and have begun striving for ourselves.

Buddha

Truth, Ourselves, Striving

For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Peace, Mind, Angry

Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host. But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean.

Maya Angelou

Fire, Bitterness, Cancer

Anger and intolerance are the enemies of correct understanding.

Mahatma Gandhi

Enemy, Correct

Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret.

Ambrose Bierce

Best, Angry, Speak

When angry, count to four; when very angry, swear.

Mark Twain

Angry, Four, Count

In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive.

Lee Iacocca

Great, Best, Positive

If you get down and quarell everyday, you're saying prayers to the devil, I say.

Bob Marley

Saying, Everyday, Devil

When angry count to ten before you speak. If very angry, count to one hundred.

Thomas Jefferson

Angry, Speak, Ten

Whatever is begun in anger ends in shame.

Benjamin Franklin

Whatever, Shame, Ends

When anger rises, think of the consequences.

Confucius

Rises

People won't have time for you if you are always angry or complaining.

Stephen Hawking

Time, Angry

When you are offended at any man's fault, turn to yourself and study your own failings. Then you will forget your anger.

Epictetus

Yourself, Forget, Study

Anger is never without a reason, but seldom with a good one.

Benjamin Franklin

Good, Reason, Seldom

A man who has never made a woman angry is a failure in life.

Christopher Morley

Life, Failure, Woman

It is impossible for you to be angry and laugh at the same time. Anger and laughter are mutually exclusive and you have the power to choose either.

Wayne Dyer

Time, Power, Angry

Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.

James Russell Lowell

Change, Sad, Angry

There are two things a person should never be angry at, what they can help, and what they cannot.

Plato

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Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.

Buddha

Else, Hot, Holding

Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.

Mark Twain

Harm, Acid, Vessel

Anybody can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within everybody's power and is not easy.

Aristotle

Time, Power, Become

Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools.

Albert Einstein

Fools, Dwells, Bosom

In a controversy the instant we feel anger we have already ceased striving for the truth, and have begun striving for ourselves.

Buddha

Truth, Ourselves, Striving

For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Peace, Mind, Angry

Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host. But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean.

Maya Angelou

Fire, Bitterness, Cancer

Anger and intolerance are the enemies of correct understanding.

Mahatma Gandhi

Enemy, Correct

Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret.

Ambrose Bierce

Best, Angry, Speak

When angry, count to four; when very angry, swear.

Mark Twain

Angry, Four, Count

In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive.

Lee Iacocca

Great, Best, Positive

If you get down and quarell everyday, you're saying prayers to the devil, I say.

Bob Marley

Saying, Everyday, Devil

When angry count to ten before you speak. If very angry, count to one hundred.

Thomas Jefferson

Angry, Speak, Ten

Whatever is begun in anger ends in shame.

Benjamin Franklin

Whatever, Shame, Ends

When anger rises, think of the consequences.

Confucius

Rises

People won't have time for you if you are always angry or complaining.

Stephen Hawking

Time, Angry

When you are offended at any man's fault, turn to yourself and study your own failings. Then you will forget your anger.

Epictetus

Yourself, Forget, Study

Anger is never without a reason, but seldom with a good one.

Benjamin Franklin

Good, Reason, Seldom

A man who has never made a woman angry is a failure in life.

Christopher Morley

Life, Failure, Woman

It is impossible for you to be angry and laugh at the same time. Anger and laughter are mutually exclusive and you have the power to choose either.

Wayne Dyer

Time, Power, Angry

Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.

James Russell Lowell

Change, Sad, Angry

There are two things a person should never be angry at, what they can help, and what they cannot.

Plato

Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_anger.html#WXkKOHb7zVOhZFOB.99